Another round of lies...

From: <him>

Sent: Friday, February 15, 2008 2:44 PM

To: <me>

Subject: Re: hi <my name>

 

gusto ko maging tayo. i mean it.

 

 

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From: <him>
Sent: Friday, February 15, 2008 2:37 PM
To: <me>
Subject: Re: hi <my name>

 

namiss kita. chat tayo

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From: <him>
Sent: Friday, February 15, 2008 12:32 PM
To: <me>
Subject: hi <my name>

 

musta na?

 

 

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Kala ko closed na ‘tong blog na ‘to, meron pa pala.  Tsk tsk.

sometimes we need to forget about some people from our past…

because of one simple reason…

 

They just don’t belong in our future J

   

Random Thoughts

Be careful when you give your heart to someone

because you're not just giving them to power to love you

but also THE POWER TO HURT YOU L

 

 

I said goodbye to someone I never had.

Tears fell down to someone who was never mine.

 

 

I am not yet ready to jump (Jump your face!)

 

 

I hate you for making me fall in love with you.

 

 

I shed buckets of tears but it did not change anything.

Instead, you drove me away.

I stopped fooling myself that the universe will conspire to get us together again.

The universe doesn’t even think we deserve a second chance. (rephrased) –ishda, peyups.com

   

Take a Bow

Take a bow, the night is over

This masquerade is getting older

Lights are low, the curtains down

There's no one here

(There's no one here, there's no one in the crowd)

Say your lines but do you feel them

Do you mean what you say when there's no one around (no one around)

Watching you, watching me, one lonely star

(One lonely star you don't know who you are)

 

I've always been in love with you (always with you)

I guess you've always known it's true (you know it's true)

You took my love for granted, why oh why

The show is over, say good-bye

 

Say good-bye (bye bye), say good-bye

 

Make them laugh, it comes so easy

When you get to the part

Where you're breaking my heart (breaking my heart)

Hide behind your smile, all the world loves a clown

(Just make 'em smile the whole world loves a clown)

Wish you well, I cannot stay

You deserve an award for the role that you played (role that you played)

No more masquerade, you're one lonely star

(One lonely star and you don't know who you are)

 

I've always been in love with you (always with you)

I guess you've always known it's true (you know it's true)

You took my love for granted, why oh why

The show is over, say good-bye

 

Say good-bye (bye bye), say good-bye

 

All the world is a stage (world is a stage)

And everyone has their part (has their part)

But how was I to know which way the story'd go

How was I to know you'd break

(You'd break, you'd break, you'd break)

You'd break my heart

 

I've always been in love with you

(I've always been in love with you)

Guess you've always known

You took my love for granted, why oh why

The show is over, say good-bye

 

I've always been in love with you (always with you)

I guess you've always known it's true (you know it's true)

You took my love for granted, why oh why

The show is over, say good-bye

 

Say good-bye (bye bye), say good-bye

Say good-bye

   

Favorite song ko ‘to dun sa album ni Mariah na merong Against All Odds (Take a Look at Me Now).  I never knew na magiging applicable ‘to sa kin… gosh!  College pa lang kasi ako nun!  Pero note na lahat ng questions sa song na ‘to e NO ang sagot J

 

(Dumadami na songs for him ha)

 

After Tonight

Mariah Carey

I look at you looking at me
Feels like a feeling meant to be
And as your body moves with mine
It's like I'm lifted out of time

And time again
Patiently I've waited
For this moment to arrive

After tonight
Will you remember
How sweet and tenderly
You reached for me
And pulled me closer
After you go
Will you return to love me
After tonight begins to fade

I feel your touch caressing me
This feeling's all I'll ever need
With every kiss from your sweet lips
It's like I'm drifting out of time

Alone will tell
If you feel the way I feel
When I look in your eyes

After tonight
(After tonight)
Will you remember
(Will you remember)
How sweet and tenderly
You reached for me
And pulled me closer
After you go
(After you go)
Will you return to love me
After the night becomes the day

Time
And time and time again
(Time and time again)
So patiently I've waited
For this moment to arrive

After tonight
(After tonight)
Will you remember
How sweet and tenderly
You reached for me
And pulled me closer
After you go
Baby will you return to love me
After the night becomes the day
After tonight begins
(Begins)
To fade

After all
After all
After all
When the morning comes
When the morning comes
After tonight
Begins to fade
(After tonight)
Begins to
Fade

 

   

Insensitive

 

How do you cool your lips

After a summers kiss

How do you rid the sweat

After the body bliss

How do you turn your eyes

From the romantic glare

How do you block the sound of a voice

You'd know anywhere

 

Oh I really should have known

By the time you drove me home

By the vagueness in your eyes

Your casual good-byes

By the chill in your embrace

The expression on your face

That told me you might have some advice to give

On how to be insensitive

 

How do you numb your skin

After the warmest touch

How do you slow your blood

After the body rush

How do you free your soul

After you've found a friend

How do you teach your heart

It's a crime to fall in love again

 

Oh you probably won't remember me

It's probably ancient history

I'm one of the chosen few

Who went ahead and fell for you

I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch

I fell too fast, I feel too much

I thought that you might have some advice to give

On how to be insensitive

   

N times

I know this is not right but I just need to pour out the feelings. Hoping that somehow it will eventually erase all the stupid ideas in my head.

You asked me N times to marry you. I turned you down N times. All those times I thought it was the right decision. Pero bakit after the Nth time, ganito na yung naramdaman ko???

It's been a week since we last talked. Di mo lang alam, kahit weekend hinihintay ko mag-online ka, hoping na makausap kita ulet. The day after the Nth time, I felt like I can already tell you how I feel. In fact, I initiated that chat with you, and that was the first time I did that (with you). Luckily or unluckily, you did not get the first message I sent. I said, you're making me sick. I thought of you overnight and while I was on my way to work. I asked if you're serious when you said that. You said you were. And you told me you will not pursue me anymore. That made me sad, really sad. I am afraid that was the last time you will say that. And now, I still haven't heard from you, since last Friday when you greeted me Happy Birthday.

Till now I am still waiting... still with all these stupid ideas in my head. Stupid me!